I just haven't felt like blogging for the longest time, and it's not because I am feeling bad, it's just that I haven't been willing to be so vulnerable. So much has happened since Halloween and it seems I haven't had a moment to breath since then. My days are busy, entertaining and filled with some sadness. I try to stay on the happy side, but I am having a few family issues that are really taking me down. I miss my mom so much and wish I could ask her for her advice.
I have to tell myself on a daily basis that I am lucky to be alive and be grateful for what I have. My gratitude list:
I have my health and the cancer has not returned, even though the months of chemo and radiation have taken it's toll on my body.
I have a granddaughter, whom I love dearly, even though I don't see her nearly enough.
I live in the best city in the world, Santa Monica, and every day is like a vacation.
I have wonderful friends and couldn't love them more if they were my flesh and blood.
My youngest daughter who lives in Chicago is in a good place, and I am happy for her and more proud of her than ever.
I have children in my life who I see all the time, and I love as much as if they were my own.
My sister and I finally appreciate each other, and are closer than ever.
I finally got an iphone and love it as much as my Mac and ipad.
I have been taking some good pictures with my iphone, since my good camera is broken and gone forever.
I have been working more, so hopefully I can get a new camera soon.
I have gotten a million laughs out of the Republican Primary and debates. If it weren't so pathetic, it would really be the best entertainment on television.
My friend is opening a coffee shop and I get to help in the planning.
I ran into Guiada de Laurentiis from the Food Network, while shopping at Whole Foods.
I don't have to have another scan for 6 months.
Took a cooking class with a friend and we learned how to make French Macarons.