Re-invention

I've had to do a little re-invention, because my life as I knew it, was no longer working. Unlike Madonna, it isn't that easy for me to re-invent myself successfully every few years.  Hell, I can barely convince myself to step outside of my narrow comfort zone on a daily basis.  I have put my inner voices on mute, because I am tired of all the bitching. I call the shots, and if I want to wallow in self pity and procastination, that's my choice, so deal with it.  I let them fight it all out amongst themselves, with the inner critic and self-saboteur usually winning.

To be honest, the fighter in me is finding it harder to get up each time I get knocked down. Don't let anyone tell you differently, because the older you get, the harder it is to bounce back.  I thought I was going to deceive old age and just skip through life locked into my thirties. I was never going to be mistaken for a grandmother. I was healthier, stronger and had more energy than people half my age.  I just started needing reading glasses TWO MONTHS AGO.  And only because I have a hard time reading a menu when I eat in a slightly dark restaurant. 

Because of the economy, my health and my mental state of mine, I have to come up with new ways to support myself.  Since half of the state of California is on unemployment, this includes coming up with some creative ways to make money.  The problem is that I'm not feeling very creative lately, in fact I am stuck in the biggest mediocre hole in my life.  I feel overwhelmed with all the talented people in the universe, and realize that it is a club I was not asked to join.  

I watched the live stream of Maria Shriver's Women's Conference and was blown away by all the remarkable women and what they have accomplished.  Talk about inferiority complex.  Mine has just multiplied. Because I don't want to die of boredom, or as a bag lady, I have come up a new way to use my talents to make money.  

I decided to print my calendar, which was originally something I did every year as a gift for my daughters and a few close friends.  I opened an ETSY shop, like millions of other bloggers and am trying to sell them there. I will be adding cards and jewelry to the shop soon.  I know it is a long shot, and I am up against some very talented people, but when you have cancer, you have to take some risks.  What have I got to lose?     If you are looking for a desktop calendar, please visit my shop.  I will even gift wrap it for you, gratis. 

Comments

[Kim]

I love the calendars!
I am having my inferiority complex moment almost every day. And joining Etsy myself, seems late in the game? Or all the other talented people selling ... but we must try, right? if not, we will never know ;)

[Amy]

I think it's awesome that you keep moving forward, even with cancer. Keep moving, girl.

[Lavender Dreams]

I love your calender and I wish you the very best in this new year! I know it's not easy...but it sounds like you have a lot of determination! KUDOS to you! ♥♥♥